Secretly Curious

As much as I love theatre, I don't really want to work in theatre. I did some school plays (that weren't very good) in high school and always did drama in my church, but after I got to college, a stagecraft class and one acting class was enough to convince me that I'm not an actor. I'm not a singer. And I'm not a dancer. And I also love WATCHING shows more than I love anything else.

But I won't lie...even as a "grown-up," I sometimes still have that little girl fantasy of being on stage. There is a small (and I do mean SMALL) community theatre about 45 minutes from my house that is holding auditions for a Christmas show to take place in the first part of December. I read the audition post and it crossed my mind to actually do it.

It was fleeting, but there it was. Luckily, there wasn't much to debate; even if I'd decided I'd like to do it, the weekend of the show conflicts with some other things I have going on. But it doesn't stop me from having that brief thought.

I know that it would be stressful and I wouldn't enjoy being in it nearly as much as I would watching it, so I wouldn't do it. But that little girl is still inside me sometimes, telling me to go for it.
Two conflicting sides to myself. I think I'm just lucky enough to know that I'd be more unhappy if I chose to participate instead of observe.

Anyone else have secret thoughts of fame? :) Share your story with me!